hours & hours

hello from mortola library! i'm spending my next three hours here since i have another class later but i can't go home in between. strangely i am sick of my soft rock playlist so i am just chilling and listening to showtunes (right now it's on shuffle and playing book of mormon). i am so tired today, not sure why. i haven't really seen my friends today so i do feel a little sad, but whatever, i guess. it's a nice day but i feel like if i go to kessel or go outside i'm just going to be lonely and fall asleep. i brought tisha's present and she didn't even come in so i have a giant box in my backpack... i really don't like being alone during this time, i just start to feel bad about myself, you know? like everybody is hanging out with their friends and i'm just not. i think most of my friends have classes now though so it's not like i ever expect them to come hang out with me but i am super sad and lonely. especially when i am sitting here listening to music for three hours... i'm also pretty hungry and the vending machine here is out of order so i will probably stop by perk mart in a little if i don't go somewhere else before. i don't really know what to do, honestly. maybe i should go outside. what's the point of sitting alone out there, though? nobody wants to hang out with someone they don't know. where are my friends, anyway? this day sucks.